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Boys don't cry by AlanKK Boys don't cry by AlanKK
FtM's hard times...
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DamyenLeFay Featured By Owner Dec 1, 2014  Student Artist
The pain a binder leaves is the worst
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Multi-k0rn Featured By Owner Jun 16, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
The fear's the worst part.
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Likau Featured By Owner Jan 5, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
I know how it feels, I'm in it... I'm really close to the edge but it's like it won't start before a looong time, even after 5 years of waiting...
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AlanKK Featured By Owner Jan 22, 2014
How come it takes so long? :(
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Likau Featured By Owner Jan 24, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Fear for the most part. Fear of my familly's reaction, fear of other people, fear of failure... I've asked myself many time if I was a fool or not, one of those who are in some Psy-hospital's cells, and if it was a normal thing. 

Now I know I'm not, I know who I am, and I know I'll go to the end of it. 

I've now two binders for me to feel better, even if it's not permanently. But hey... I'm gonna find some psychiatric-dude for help, and good help (not the "You're an alien to me, go away" thing) only. Even if it takes five more years -or even more- I'm gonna make it 'til the end ! And I'll finally be the one I really am inside o/
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VampireHunterAmanda Featured By Owner Oct 13, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
I have those exact feelings :( Gay transman, unable to even start testosterone for at least another year.
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AlanKK Featured By Owner Oct 13, 2013

Hang in there, buddy! One day those terrible times are just a bad memory, I survived and now I've been over a year on testosterone. I know what it's like when everything seems so far away, you just have to keep living and it'll be fine.

Good luck!

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CreepyPastaBaby Featured By Owner Jun 27, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Teared up.. I feel his pain.
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Naki-Tori Featured By Owner Mar 13, 2013
This hits close to home.
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AlanKK Featured By Owner Mar 13, 2013
:--(
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pupster699 Featured By Owner Sep 7, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
oh wow... i said that to myself so manny times...
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WariTab Featured By Owner Nov 26, 2012  Student Interface Designer
I say this shit to my self standing in front of the mirror every day. But still tears in my eyes. I hate it.
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Karazura Featured By Owner Jan 12, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
If you ask me a boy who cries is twice the man of a boy who does, because he can express himself with out fear. If you need to cry, then cry. I would think you all the stronger for it. :hug:
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AlanKK Featured By Owner Mar 5, 2013
Truly wise words!
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Karazura Featured By Owner Jan 12, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
*Twice the man of a boy who doesn't*
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WariTab Featured By Owner Feb 8, 2013  Student Interface Designer
actuanlly ur right and I can't fight it anyfuckingsmore so I just give up on that shit. Im who im! If ive a girl body I may be a girl for some rizun. So I Keep that! XD I glad with my body no matter if i look like a girl or not IdC
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CaptainConspicuous Featured By Owner Oct 25, 2011  Hobbyist General Artist
Hi, I'm doing a school project on Gender Identity and reading a book called Parrotfish by Ellen Wittlinger. I have to make a book trailer... a powerpoint presentation kind of thing. This picture caught my eye. It displays a lot of powerful emotion. And as someone going through this right now, if I weren't at at school right now I'd probably be breaking down. Back to my point. xD;; I'd like to use it. It's a non-commercial presentation: may I have your permission? C:
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MrStarkidPotter Featured By Owner Jun 4, 2013  Student General Artist
THAT BOOK MADE ME CRY
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AlanKK Featured By Owner Oct 26, 2011
Wow, sounds great! Of course you can use this picture in your project. I'm glad you like it :---) It would be nice if you'd mention my deaviantArt-nick in there, I'm hoping to get some more viewers to my art x)
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CaptainConspicuous Featured By Owner Oct 26, 2011  Hobbyist General Artist
Wow, thanks so much! :la: It'll add a ton to my presentation, I'm sure. And of course I'll credit you. xD (I'll make it obvious, I promise.) ;D
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AlanKK Featured By Owner Nov 3, 2011
Thanks! I know it's gonna be a great presentation :--)
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BloodAndIce Featured By Owner Apr 25, 2011
I can feel the emotion flowing off this piece. -tilts head to one side-
Having/had some difficult times?
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AlanKK Featured By Owner Apr 28, 2011
Yup, difficult times in deed. But getting better :---)
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MetalWolfGemstone Featured By Owner Apr 4, 2011  Hobbyist General Artist
This really struck a sensitive chord inside me. I can’t tell you how many times I’ve sat in the same position, cursing and telling myself over an over that boy’s don’t cry. I’ll be shirtless with the bandage around my chest –my hair is even the same length and color- and just.....

Wow, It was almost as if I saw myself. Going through that is so hard :( I mean, I’m completely proud and happy that I came out, but its almost like everyone still refuses to see you for you. Even your closest friends who may completely 120% supportive, will never know what is truly tearing you apart each time you look down in the shower or take a step out into the community where everyone knew you as a ‘girl’.

Beautiful work, just amazing. The colors, the tones, the way the words were made. I am saving this not only on my +faves, but also on my computer. SCREW IT! This’ll be my windows desktop background! I can’t stress enough how happy and sad this made me feel at once =’3 I hope you do more FTM stuff soon again.
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AlanKK Featured By Owner Apr 5, 2011
Woah, man, you made me cry! :'<

I-I can't even put any words in here. I totally understand how you're feeling. This picture has all the pain in it that I'm feeling everyday. I think every FTM has been in that position, holding their head in hands and trying to be strong. But it's so hard :(

I'm so glad that this picture means so much to you. I can't even tell how I'm feeling right now :'---)

And yeah, I'm absolutely going to do more FTM stuff!
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MetalWolfGemstone Featured By Owner Apr 5, 2011  Hobbyist General Artist
MANLY HUG!!! :iconspazhugplz:

At least it's good to know that we don't suffer alone- Keep up the good work! ;)
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AlanKK Featured By Owner Apr 6, 2011
Yeah, that's true! :)

You bet I will :---D
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DonnyFate Featured By Owner Apr 4, 2011  Hobbyist General Artist
Pretty much how I've been feeling lately. :( I'mma bag o' sad.
:) Art, however, is lovely.
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AlanKK Featured By Owner Apr 4, 2011
Sorry to hear that, man :---(

But thanks! : )
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DeathAngelsDay Featured By Owner Mar 24, 2011  Hobbyist General Artist
i love this. excelent work
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AlanKK Featured By Owner Mar 28, 2011
Woah thanks! :---D
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Adam-LOVES-HTTYD Featured By Owner Mar 5, 2011  Student
I'm going through this right now ._.
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AlanKK Featured By Owner Mar 6, 2011
Hard times, aren't they :---(
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Adam-LOVES-HTTYD Featured By Owner Mar 6, 2011  Student
Very :(
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Yesiamstupid Featured By Owner Feb 25, 2011
To true...
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AlanKK Featured By Owner Feb 25, 2011
:----/
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Raidon-chan Featured By Owner Feb 25, 2011  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Beautiful, you can really feel the emotions in this. c:
I hope it gets better. :/ :>
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AlanKK Featured By Owner Feb 25, 2011
Thank you :>
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